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Okay, so, last night, I got onto Facebook to wish Scott a happy birthday. And, yea, I know what you're thinking: With all the issues I've had with him lately, why the fuck would I want to do that?
I don't hate Scott. I hate the way he treats me sometimes, and I really hate the way he treats the new administration and sometimes tries to work against them and me because we're not doing what he's suggested, but I don't hate him. I really wonder if he even realizes how backhanded a lot of his compliments sound, because a lot of the time I'm not even sure if he knows how the things coming out of his mouth sound.
And besides, he's the first person from Guild when I started, besides my fiance, to treat me like a human instead of a "new pair of boobs" as a certain cretin who was there when I started and still deserves several shots to the nuts from me happened to put it.
And yea, I bag on him a lot for not having a job. But really, even I have a fucking job right now. It's not much of one, but I have one and while I may not be able to pay for huge items or take care of really expensive needs, I can take care of a lot of the things I need and want. I'm 23. I have a $400 tuition bill due by mid January that isn't going to take care of itself. Scott still lives in an apartment paid for by his parents at 31 and he just graduated. You can see why I would be irked by the unfairness of that. It doesn't help when he assumes that I can go and do things when I literally have no money for it.
That and if he had a job, he wouldn't have time to angst over Guild when everything is FINE.
So anyway, I go to Facebook to wish him happy birthday and I find out that he's removed me from his friends list. I wouldn't be too worried about this and ask for a readd if Scott didn't strike me as the type of person who might cut off all ties with you if you removed him from your Top 8 on Myspace. I guess I should take this as a declaration of the end of our friendship? IDK. I'm not completely sorry for all the things I said, at least not on here. Yea, I said some of them out of anger, but when I made those posts, guess what, I was angry.
In any case, if he wants to come back around and try being friends with me again, then I'm okay with that. If not, it's kind of sad, but I'm not going to spend too long crying over it.
Your Goddess and Mistress,
Shinimegami
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