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[01 Jan 2009|06:37pm] |
The colors have built up in my mind
They're bleeding through my heart
And nobody knows that they exist
Look at my bursted veins
Now do you see the red in me
It's a sign for the end
Only the end of the red
Will show you my blue side
I've been given my brush and plate
But where will i paint my life
And will the buyer in the sky
Believe in what i dream
And it's so hard for me to explain
What i will miss
To myself
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HAPPY NEW YEAR guyssssss
<3
Yesterday I woke up late and Drew's mom told me he finally got some of our letters and he wrote back. I was beyond excited. So I had some coffee with Mrs. Carolyn and Mr. Larry and talked for a while and read his letters. After I left their house i went to give Alexis the letter Drew wrote her, only I forgot yesterday was her birthday. Like...i KNEW...but i didn't...you know?
Anyway so I have her hugs and kisses and ended up staying for dinner. Grumpy Kutter left early because he's sick. I gave her her Christmas present as well as the letter.
Ian's brother was there. Nick? I forget his name, but I like him. He's big now. He's in HS and everything. It's really weird. I mean he's always been pretty cool, but it's weird to see him look almost my age. *shrug*
After dinner with them I went home and put make up on and smoked a bowl with mommy.
I played cards while waiting on Brittany and David to come pick me up.
When they got there we got some rum and went to Brit's sister's house. I mixed drinks the wrong way and ended up throwing up all night and not even close to tipsy or drunk. Real disappointment, on the reals. :) heh...
BUT we ended up all decorating some wife beaters and going to Dick and Jane's. I had a blast. We danced for ever and i saw so many people that I miss.
Devin, Kym, Kata's brother Drew, Ame, David Williams, and a few others were there. Everyone being around really excited me. Too bad I was so sick. Ugh.
I'll put pictures up as soon as I get some!
Brittany Smith amazes me with her body and how great of a dancer she is. She seriously blows my mind.
Gee I sure wish some of my mom friends would have been there.
I'm tired. My legs hurt. Drew's visitation is in a few days. Today I'm resting and going to sleep early. In like 4 or 5 hours. No lie.
(I do wish I could be consistent with anything. My opinions don't even stay the same. "I hate you...no I love you..no, I don't care, no, I love you again, wait I don't know. Don't talk to me.")
At this particular moment I hate my mom's bf, Chris, and Sarah.
I'm sure that will change soon. Maybe in a matter of minutes.
THAT is why I love Drew. He's the only person I know who understands it.
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ctba. :D <3
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[22 Dec 2008|02:36am] |
Yeah, so I'm pretty much worthless lately.
If I don't have someone telling me to do stuff
I will stay in bed until I can't any more.
Yesterday I went to Sam's and smoked the worst blunt I've ever rolled.
Then we watched Full Metal Jacket.
I was home by 2 probably, but I slept until 6 pm today.
I only got out of bed because I had a headache.
I've been on the couch since. Drinkin' vodka and cough syrup. Healthy, much?
I've been writing Drew a letter also.
I love Sundays. The trains don't come by so much.
It's quiet.
Chris's alarm is going off and its fucking loud and he obviously can't hear it. it's 2:30. WHY is his alarm going off?
Fuck.
My mother has been bitching because I don't sleep at night.
Tomorrow I have to get up early and run errands.
By early I mean about 10am. Lol.
I miss Drew so bad.
If you would like to write him, let me know.
Kyt, lets hang out. C'mon.
And does anyone know of anywhere I could apply? I'm really looking for something more professional, you know? It doesn't matter at this point. Let me know. <3
I'll update later. It's late. I'm kind of out of it.
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[19 Dec 2008|01:38am] |
weird.
I haven't updated this thing since June.
Thinks have changed. I got through my first semester at MUW with a 3.09 gpa.
I transfered to Hinds.
Drew went to jail.
I talk to Kyt again. <3
Tomorrow I have to pick up stupid benjamin from Sam and Marty's and take him to Alexis's house.
Why can't Drew have a cute wonderful loving fluffy cat that everyone wants to take? I feel like I'm fucking people over by trying to get them to watch the poor thing.
THANKS LEXIS! *cough*
Oh yeah I'm sick too. No fun.
Dick and Jane's Saturday night, let's go!
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[04 Dec 2008|02:40pm] |
ANONYMOUS
Say what you want here, whatever you want. Keep it classy.
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[30 Nov 2008|11:10pm] |
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[20 Nov 2008|12:41am] |
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The only sensible way to live in this world is without rules.
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[19 Nov 2008|11:51pm] |
oddly educational.
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| THERE IS THE KNOWN AND THE UNKOWN. |
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“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” — Jim Morrison
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[15 Nov 2008|04:57pm] |
Amputee day happened.
It was an accident,
but it HAPPENED.
Edit: Also?
Trent Reznor can transform into a fucking dinosaur.
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[15 Nov 2008|12:15am] |
Add my personal journal parrot
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| space potatoes. Or: more stupid videos |
[13 Nov 2008|06:37pm] |
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[13 Nov 2008|02:05pm] |
Locked&Loaded.
FRIENDS ONLY
CTBA!
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| this makes me think of kim. |
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