Her Sunday school teacher was an old, teary-eyed woman who started every class by singing "When Mothers of Salem," while the children hung up their coats and sat down cross-legged on the floor in front of her. That hymn, especially the part about Jesus wanting to hold children to His "bosom", made Beth feel that there was something not right about Jesus, and consequently it was responsible for her six months of anxiety that she would end up in hell. Every night, after saying her prayers, she would spend a few minutes chanting "I love Jesus, I love Jesus, I love Jesus," the idea being that she could talk herself into it. She didn't expect to feel earthly love; she awaited the unknown feeling called glory.

( When she began to float, she said to herself, 'This is glory.' )