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[04 Dec 2008|07:58pm] |
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I'm finally posting my anon entry.
So tell me what you think of me, really. Or tell me about your problems. I'll answer.
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[23 Nov 2008|08:10pm] |
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I AM SO FUCKING MAD I'M USING ALL CAPS TO ANNOUNCE HOW MAD I AM BECAUSE SCREAMING WILL CAUSE MY THROAT TO RELAPSE INTO STREPPY ENTROPY
k so zOMG is being douchy and all the people that play it are all fucking douchebags
i can't believe that my laptop fucking freezes in the middle of playing it no matter what i do
deleting music, restarting, holding the damn thing upside down, putting an icepack over the battery, fucking nothing fixes the goddamn lag that happens every 30 minutes that i play and it makes it really inconvenient for me when i want to play in a crew and i can't because the mother fucker explodes every goddamn half hour and i have to keep myself from throwing shit into the wall namely my piece of shit laptop that destroys every hope i ever had for anything fun/useful
also they didn't schedule me at all this week at KF-fucking-C so now i have no hours and on top of me having to miss work because i was contagious and miserable i only have about 30$ to my name and no money coming to me what so fucking ever
AND JOHNNY FUCKING SCALA IS A STUPID BRAT AND I WANT MY FUCKING EDITORIAL SPREAD BACK
SO FUCK YOU
ALL OF YOU.
goddamn i am mad.
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| my life recently |
[16 Nov 2008|10:50pm] |
Basically I am not happy with the way my life has been going recently. The only thing I'm happy about is good grades, but I would trade those any day to get all my problems fixed.
1. I NEED to lose weight. Actually, I'm not even concerned with the number on the scale, I just want to be toned and shit. I get massive headaches after working out so It's really hard to get any homework done after I go to the gym because my head hurts so bad. I know it's not a good excuse, but it really sucks. I wish I didnt have to go through it just to get in shape. Even my mom said I need to lose weight.
2. I NEED a job. Ive applied at a bunch of places for over winter break(I get dec.13th-jan.20th) off. I have like no money to buy anything, and my mom is the cheapest person EVER. My parents buy this huge house and a lexus and everything then my mom tells me to shop at goodwill. Are you fucking serious? I only work a couple hours on Sunday at a church nursery next to my dorm.
3. Alex(my boyfriend) and I are getting annoyed with each other more. I still love him..but around that year mark I always feel annoyed with guys...i cant help it..it suckkkssss!
4. I was going to get an apartment with my friend Lindsay of three years..and two other girls she just met on campus this year..and has becomes like best friends with one of them, Jen. The other girl is jen's roommate. I have been sooo excited about getting this apartment next year, and I even made a budget and lindsay and I have been talking about it for a while now. Ive hung out with her new friend Jen a couple of times and Jens roomate Laura when we all went out to eat. They seem like really down to earth nice girls. Then, a couple of nights ago a got a call from Lindsay saying we need to talk. She basically told me that I couldnt get an apartment with her, jen, and laura, because they didnt think they could live with me. First of all I have hung out with laura once and jen like twice..i have been nothing but nice to them..i dont like drama at all..Im just a chill person...i thought they were awesome and i couldnt wait to get an apartment with them. For them to judge me like that hurt really bad when they barely knew me how were they going to say that they couldnt live with me bc they thought our personalities would clash? what the fuck does that mean? I was sooooo upset. On top of that Lindsay is fucking me over to be with girls she just met over her friend of three years. She doesnt give a fuck at all. I just cant believe it. No one can really understand what Im saying and how bad it hurt unless i was a really good writer or in my shoes. I just had to vent about it, once again. I left out some things that hurt really bad..but i cant remember I just remember how shitty I felt.I dont want to live in a dorm next year thats why I have been excited about this apartment..
my boyfriend & I
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| good morning starshine the earth says hello! |
[04 Nov 2008|06:11am] |
it's to fucking earlier.
but i seriously just had a dream about disecting brains but then brains tried to suck our faces off. i guess this is what happens when you've seen aliens and read harry potter too much for your good. haha
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[23 Sep 2008|10:08pm] |
[x] Tell me your name.
[x] Tell me your age.
[x] Tell me your reason for adding me.
[x] You may promote your community only once.
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[22 Sep 2008|03:26pm] |
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i need an active community to join...any ideas?
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| ctba. |
[22 Sep 2008|06:02pm] |
atm, this journal is friends only!
(tell me your name / favorite band.)
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[26 Aug 2008|10:44pm] |
Member's Only.
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[17 Aug 2008|10:41am] |
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[geek post]NOT EVEN CAPSLOCK CAN CONVEY THE FANGIRLING JOY OF INSTALLING THE WRATH OF THE LICH KING BETA PROGRAM RIGHT NOW! for those other WoW fans on my Flist I will post screenshots of EVERYTHING so you can see what it's like! *-*;[/geek post]
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| hands to become wing's and protect you |
[14 Aug 2008|11:07am] |
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❛Often our intentions are strong at first, but as time goes on they weaken, just like an apple sticks to the tree when it is unripe but falls to the ground once it ripens. The promises we make to ourselves in emotional moments lose their power once the emotion passes. Great grief and joy may rouse us to action, but when the grief or joy have passed, we're no longer motivated to act. Joy turns to grief in the blink of an eye, and grief becomes joy just as quickly. This world is not made for either one to last long in, and it's no surprise that even our loves change along with our luck. It's still a mystery to be solved whether luck controls love, or love controls luck. When a great man has a run of bad luck, watch how followers desert him, and when a poor man advances to an important position, he makes friends with the people he used to hate. Love is unreliable.❜ |
small hiatus I'm sort of stuck in an emotional limbo right now. I don't have the energy to update about the ammount of bullshit going since I've been back from Norway. I hope the timeout will help me gather my thoughts.
take care everyone i'll still be around commenting~ ♥
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| we see our prize reflected in anothers eyes |
[11 Aug 2008|12:42am] |
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I'm sorry for my lack of activity here lately. I've been stuck in a bit of a "scribbld slump" I'm bored of my journal, I feel like it needs a good overhaul, new content and jazzing u. But my inspiration seems to be AWOL :/
I've made a few posts over at my inksome recently but maily because it was quiet and I can voice thing's more when it's private; by all means add me :)
Things have been in a bit of an upheave recently, me and Liam have split up and I am unsure what my plans ofr the future are just yet. When I make sense of thing's I will update of course in the meantime however...I'm not the type of person to babble on about myseelings.
I hope you all understand~ &hearts
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| we bought you the sun carried over mountains |
[30 Jul 2008|01:20am] |
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I've never felt so grounded in such a long time. I had'nt seen anyone or anywhere so beautiful until I came here and met you. I'm refreshed I feel ready to take on the world again.
I'd like to reinvent myself, almost start over, is it possible to be fully cleansed? I sure hope so. I'm so excited and I don't know why, so stupidly eager with anticipation to see how I evolve.
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So I'm sat in an airport in norway. This has to be one of the craziest things I've ever done.
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[18 Jul 2008|03:50pm] |
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My mum just called to ask me to go to a concert of classical music and "dancing aeroplanes" tomorrow night since some family friends are now unable to go due to the lady's mother falling terminally ill. I've asked mum to send my love to Pam and her family and agreed to buy Pam's tickets since they don't go to waste.
I will now have to start packing and arranging thing's tonight, to make sure I have enough time tomorrow once I've been into cambridge/made my phone calls etc. We will need to arrive at Duxford airport at 4:30pm. I hope we'll be able to make it arrangements are still up in the air.
On a positive note all the work that snowed me under has now been done and passed onto the relevant people :D My bosses and most people have also left the office early today, I'm low on work and sadly I promised to stay until 5:30 ;~; I need to stay so I have the overtime for extra pay but agh. so. bored. I wish I had'nt agreed to it, then I could have left early to get started on my packing, washing and ironing. grrh.
edit welcome to flist ![[info]](http://www.scribbld.net/img/userinfo.gif) vermilionsky I'm sorry I did'nt add you sooner. But I did'nt see a comment to be added on my entries D:
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| play your part and the show goes on |
[16 Jul 2008|11:35am] |
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I'm not sure where im heading in life at the moment. I've hit a big crossroads, do I stay where I am with my excellatn job prospect working as a designer and adminstrations manager. Or do I cut my ties and risk chasing my dream of being a translator/interpreter.
Both of these job's are well paying, both of them are within reach if I dedicate myself to them 100%
I've spent a lot of time contemplating my current job, I love it I absolutly hated technical design in school but working almost independantly with the design and having the freedom to incorporate my own ideas and systems into my work makes it enjoyable. My two bosses Martin and Paul have said on numerous ocassions that I have all the right ideas to help move the design department forward. I enjoy my job because creating my own systems and procedures helps me use my creative side. I might not be painting a masterpiece but I do get to use my imagination and intiative. I've reduced the downtime on the design work by a huge ammount as well as taking on other responsibilities such as:
● Completed production paperwork filing and archiving
● Systems for concessions and reworks production paperwork reference spreadsheet and filing system
● Design changing procedure, spreadsheet and system
● ISO based procedure writing and development.
● Returns reference and booking
I know it might not look like much as list but each of these systems have stages that take a considerable ammount of time. But as a whole they have vastly improved the flow of work past presant and future paperwork and also the lead time on how quickly we manufacture the lamps.
All thing's considered I've been wondering if I should ask for a pay rise..
There are one or two thing's that could be a setback for me which could result in me not having my request approved:
● I've had quite a lot of time off sick -- this may make my request seem like a bit of a slap in the face.
● I've not worked here very long -- I've worked here since december in various departments before I was given my permanent position here in design now. Perhaps there is more I need to improve on before they would consider reviewing my wages.
My other more long term goal of being changing roles to be an interpreter may also be incorporated into my current job. I know that we have customers in japan, I also know that it would be better for them to have someone in the office who spoke good japanese in a professional manner to help keep the partnership between the companies secure. It would quite possibly be a promotion up from the job I am doing now. The only draw back is using the language here would only be a small job whereas design is far more diverse and there is more room within the position for me to spread my wings.
What would you do in my position?
Would you keep the secure job with the easily obtained career? The type of job you are happy doing even if it isn't exactly what you had planned for your life.
Or
Would you chase your dream? Take a chance on doing something that you feel would suit you down to the ground as a person?
There is a lot more to consider involving my personal life too, however I really don't have the time or the energy to type it up now, this will be continued in another post sometime.
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