「i got my own superstitions」

I'm pretty much drunk right now...

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 23:18:34 GMT

You'll get something better when I'm sober... but first:
OH SHIT SON. EPISODE 10. FUCK YES. IT'S GOING TO BE EPIC.

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Mon, 10 Nov 2008 18:04:44 GMT

...Hey Scribbld - when were you thinking of letting us know about out new user info?

YOU

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 04:07:01 GMT

Am I on your 'Friend' list?
If so, carry on.
Am I on your 'Friend Of' list?
If I am, your journey stops here, however the note at the bottom may interest you. If I'm not - this is for you.

Please do me the common courtesy of removing me. I'm not going to go into the reasons as to why I've removed you here - but take note - I will not tolerate anyone talking to my friends like that. It was rude and condescending.

Comments are disabled because I don't want you coming here and trying to make me see things your way. You crossed a line when you acted like that towards ~~the~~my Composer. Immature? Maybe, but heed my words here:
If you comment on anything I do after I have posted this, whether it be in this journal, or in a community post, or whatever, I will delete your comments and mark them as spam. I'm done with you.

One final thing: Do not fuck with, or talk down to my friends. Especially those I am close to... because I will react, and it won't be pretty.

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 22:53:00 GMT

MERLIN YOU ARE A GIANT FUCKING TWAT.
THAT LITTLE BASTARD WILL PROBABLY KILL HIM.
THE DRAGON MY BE A PITA, BUT FFS HE WAS RIGHT.
...UGH YOU TWAT!

/fandomrant.

Woot!

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 02:04:46 GMT

Guess who got creative and wrote a tutorial?
If you said Neku... ding ding ding 10 points to you.
Its for Photoshop 7 or above, and due to Selective Colour layers, it's not doable in Paint Shop Pro :(
Want to see it? It's right here!

And on a random note. I'm redoing my icons. Why? Because I feel like it!

Edit: Woot. Finsihed my icons. Woayeah!

HAPPY GUY FAWKES NIGHT F-LIST

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 22:36:23 GMT

Remember, remember, the fifth of November,
Gunpowder, Treason and Plot.
I see no reason, why Gunpowder Treason,
Should ever be forgot.

HAPPY GUY FAWKES NIGHT.

lol UK Holidays...

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Sun, 02 Nov 2008 20:57:06 GMT

I'm waiting for someone to upload a clip of Kelly Jones on 'Strictly Come Dancing' to youtube. Because... unf. 13-year-old-girl-crush that hasn't gone away.

Wishing you all a...

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 17:24:16 GMT

Emo Neku tiems.

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 10:53:21 GMT

I suck. And I fail.

WAY TO GO DICKHEAD.

X-Posted from LJ "Writer's Block: Volunteering" - Last Entry before I go to bed I swear!

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 00:45:00 GMT

When it comes to making a difference, some people donate money and others volunteer their time. What cause gets your time or money?

The British Heart Foundation gets four hours of my time, most Saturday mornings, when I volunteer in the Halifax shop. Why? Because it gives me something to do, I've gained useful skills, and I get to meet a lot of wonderful people. I do, however, abuse my 25% staff discount (I know it doesn't make sense...) but they probably won't complain as it's all money for the charity either way. I also donate unwanted items there, and because I am a registered BHF Gift Aid donor, they can get 28 pence more to the pound on the items I give them. Just my little contribution to help those who are less fortunate than I am.

RANDOM ENTRY AGAIN.

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 00:20:49 GMT

THE CREATIVE BUG HAS STRUCK ME ONCE MORE. NOT SURE WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT? SEXY NEW ICON. CHECK IT. LOVE IT.

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 22:34:31 GMT

Right, proper entry time.

...WAIT WHAT? NEKU ACTUALLY MAKING GOOD ON HER WORD? FUCK ME!

Ahem. Right, today; I spent 9 quid. It wasn't all on me I swear! The only thing I bought myself was a purple heart necklace which you can see a picture of here. Nice isn't it? Anyways! I also bought my mum a musical hedgehog that plays "It's a Small World After All" which takes her hedgehog collection up to about 50 million (yes, that is an exaggeration, but I can't keep count of how many she has).

I also bought my three niece's a present, if you look here, you can see (basically) what I've bought them - however I think what I bought has a few more bits ;). It all came in a wooden box and it's pretty funky. However, my parents paid me back most of what I paid for it, so it's not too bad. I'll try and get you pictures of those ones tomorrow.

Um... what else was I going to write about...? OH YEAH. Starting on Monday, for the next two weeks I have a job trial. What that entails, is basically that I try the job for those two weeks, and if the employer thinks I'm right for the job at the end of that time, I get the job. And if I get the job - I get a £100 bonus from the job centre plus a £100 bonus from a training course I went on. That amount of money would enable me to pay off the rest of the money I owe my parents, as well as enabling me to pout some money away for an XBox360. However, that is not the only reason I want to get a job - I need to get out of the house and do something before I go insane.

Um... I do have other things to say, but I keep forgetting them, so I'll end this entry here.
TIEM TO WORK ON MY WRITINGS. WOO-HOO

HAI GUYS.

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 15:55:58 GMT

Random post before I put up a 'proper' entry later...

allieverwanted I got bored and made a writing journal. Check it out?

This is what boredom does to me...

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 19:34:55 GMT

Two 'The World Ends With You' ficlets/drabbles. Both exactly 100 words each, mostly dialogue with minimal action/description.

Dedicated to my Josh and my Rhyme, because they're awesome ~~unlike these fics D:~~

Drabble 1
Neku & Rhyme
Birthday presents and being watched.

“You do realise that…”
“That my brother is over there, trying to be inconspicuous? Yes, I’ve noticed.”
“Why is he doing that?”
A giggle. “He’s making sure you don’t do anything ‘untwisted’ to me”
“…” Sighing.
Another giggle. “I know. I think he meant untoward… but with Beat you can’t be sure.”
“I don’t think birthday present shopping is considered untoward these days…is it?”
“Not that I’m aware of. Unless the recipient doesn’t like it.”
“Do you think he will?”
“He’s been drooling over that board for weeks.”
“…True. Later Rhyme! I’ve got to meet someone at WildKat.”
“Bye Neku!”

Drabble 2
Neku & Josh
Meetings and Freaks

A sigh. “Remind me why I agreed to this?”
“Because Neku dear, you trust your partners, and under that assumption, you trust me.”
“God only knows why.”
“Nope, no God… Just me. And even I’m not sure exactly what goes through your head.”
Muffled mumbling around a cup.
“What was that dear?”
“I said, ‘Kiss my ass Josh’.”
“Gladly. Just name a time and a place.”
“You’re such a freak…”
“Just remember Neku that this ‘freak’ can erase you if he wants.”
More muffled words.
“I’ll take that as your agreement to meet me next week, same time, same location.”

...at least I'm not on the sims?

The Inane Ramblings of a Half Asleep Mind

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 00:17:43 GMT

Open my lips, finding no words, close the mouth, keep the silence. Watching, waiting. Not my time to shine, not yet. Stay out of the spotlight, keep your head down, lower your voice don't stand out.

Shake my head, get the pictures of you out of my mind. Ignore the ghosts of your smile behind my eyes, the sound of my name spilling from your lips when you spoke. You're gone and it's time to move on. However you were once mine and I was once yours. Don't forget that dear heart.

Give me apathy, emotion is my greatest downfall. Give me the power to speak, to express myself. Let the words fall from my lips like water from a tap, instead of blood from a stone. Let emotion and worry be cast aside for truth and freedom. Enable me to speak my mind, stop me from locking it inside my chest and my head, hidden with a silver key.

Give me your thoughts, tell me what you feel. Whether it be under your name, or the veil of anonimity, let them come out into the open.

No title because I am not creative.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 21:48:19 GMT

...I'm still sick, but I think I've been hanging around at pixelpeach over at LJ a little too much.

I now have a folder full of that sort of stuff on my computer XD and I've been making stuff out of them, a. to aliavate my boredom and b. to take my mind off my throat.

It's super addictive, and some of the things are really cute. Under the cut is the (relatively small) collection of name doll things I've done.

☆ Short-Fic ‣ Public

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 21:32:47 GMT

Title: Hasn't got one... XD
Rating: G/PG
Fandom: The World Ends With You
Characters: Joshua, Neku, Rhyme and Mr Hanekoma
Notes: Inspired by this pic.

If there was anything the Composer Kiryuu Yoshiya loved more than Shibuya – it is His city after all – it was His proxy, one Sakuraba Neku. He would say that it was His duty to ensure the safety of the boy, although others would disagree.

His Producer had been His informant for the past few weeks, letting him know of the developments in the teen’s life. However, His self imposed exile from the city, and with it the life of Neku was about to end. The Game had ended for this particular week, the game master falling quickly to the determined players.

He decided to materialise in the WildKat café, much to the amusement of Mr. Hanekoma. Ignoring the mans grin – that if he was honest; was bordering on slightly lecherous – he stepped out into the RG part of the city.

Following the distinctive music of His proxy, he found him sat on a bench, his back towards the particular entrance He had chosen, without his group of close friends – how strange, Mr Hanekoma had said that the group had arranged to meet here today – head tilted back and, covering his ears were his headphones. Well, that would never do.

Silently approaching the boy, He let out a soft giggle, before effortlessly vaulting over the back of the bench to sit next to Neku.

“Now dear, don’t you think you’re being a bit rude?” He asked, simultaneously pulling the headphones off Neku’s head, and snuggling into his side.

“What the hell?!” As soon as the headphones had been pulled off his head, Neku had leapt into the air, making Him giggle once more. “Josh? What are you doing here?”

“Is it a crime for me to want to visit my favourite proxy?” His voice held the same teasing lilt it had done in their time in the Game. “After all, it has been such a long time since I’ve seen you.”

Neku sighed and reached for his headphones. Joshua giggled and hung them from His finger, holding them out of reach. “I thought you’d grown out of this particular habit…?” He chided softly.

“Sometimes it’s better to drown out people’s noise. Other times – like in this particular case – it helps pass the time.” He made a soft ‘hmm’ noise at His proxy’s confession. A grin flashed over His features before He placed the headphones on, giggling softly at the confused look on Neku’s face.

“I just want to see what you’re listening to Neku dear.” He flashed the boy a winning smile. “You don’t mind do you?” He took Neku’s sigh as a slightly irritated indication that no, he didn’t mind his headphone being used by Him.

As He listened to the noise masquerading as music, He wondered why he had taken an interest in Neku in the first place. However, when a softer song came on – one about an ‘us’ being against ‘the world’ – He realised that he hadn’t been wrong in His choice.

Joshua was about to open up to Neku and tell him what He thought of the song, when a small ‘click’ rang through the air, accompanied by a soft, light laugh. Looking up He saw the young girl – Bito Raimu, known as Rhyme, His mind told him – stood with a camera.

She smiled brightly when she noticed him staring. “It’s not often Neku shares his headphones, so I thought I should take a photograph as proof.”

He smiled lightly at her and took off the headphones. “Indeed. If you could give a copy to Neku for me I would be most obliged.” He bowed His head to Neku and Rhyme. “I’m afraid I must leave now, as I have other matters to attend to.” He left much as He had come, a silent, commanding yet unnoticed presence amongst the population.

He was not surprised by anything for the next few days, not Shibuya, not the player, and not the reapers. However, a week after He had met His proxy and His proxy’s friend, He made the journey to WildKat once more.

“Hey Boss, phones dropped this off for you this morning.” He looked at the small pieces of paper in the Producer’s hands and took them. The first was plain white, and blank except for the – obviously hastily – scrawled writing that simply said “For you – Neku.” He moved it aside to reveal what secrets it hid. There in His hands, was a photo of Him, in Neku’s headphones on His head, looking deep in thought.

”Just something I asked for.” He said, smiling as the Producer looked at Him from over his glasses. And it is far superior to my expectations.”

“Right, Josh.” Hanekoma drawled a self-satisfied smirk painting his features. “And that’s why you’re looking like a lovesick schoolgirl then?”?

Fin.

Words: 795.
For my Josh and Rhyme. You guys know who you are and you know you rock. I love you guys ♥

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 19:51:16 GMT

FUCK THIS.

...you'll probably get an explanation later.

☆ Toast? No one can suck my cock after toast! ‣ Public

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 23:42:37 GMT

☆ Dedication ‣ Public

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 19:46:49 GMT

As you can see, I'm very bored right now. I'm probably not going to be on any of the messengers until after 9.30pmGMT (about...40 minutes from now) as I'm watching something I recorded earlier. Talk to you then with a hopefully amusing MTW post.

☆ Mock the Week ‣ Public

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 22:02:08 GMT

MOCK THE WEEK MARATHON ON DAVE RIGHT NOW.

FUCK YES.

YOU WON'T SEE MUCH OF ME TONIGHT.

☆ My Life or Something Like It ‣ Public

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 21:30:01 GMT

So, time for an uninteresting update on me.

I've redone my userinfo. Why? I was getting bored of the one I had. It's nowhere near finished and I may end up tweaking it a bit more. I'm happy with it so far though.

I do have loads of other things to say, but I really can't be bothered to say them tonight. I might do it in a few days, I might not. All depends on how my mood holds up.

☆ (Afterlife) ☆ SKS/TWEWY Fanmix ‣ Public

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 00:19:55 GMT

Fandom: The World Ends With You
Character(s): All major
Pairing(s): None
Warning(s): Swearing

Download (Afterlife) RAR ☆ Mediafire
1 Avenged Sevenfold - Afterlife
Loved ones back home all crying ’cause they're already missing me
I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken; I’m choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

2 Green Day - Macy's Day Parade
And I'm thinkin' about the only road.
The one I've never known.
And where it goes...
And I'm thinkin' about a brand new hope.
The one I've never known.
'Cause now I know it's all that I wanted.

3 Nightwish - 7 Days to the Wolves
Seven days to the wolves
Where will we be when they come?
Seven days to the poison
And a place in heaven
Time drawing near as they come to take us

4 Thousand Foot Krutch - Move
Can you hear me? Stop, look, listen to my voice,
It was never my choice to feel all alone
This is my home
Back up , you don't know if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears
It takes everything I am

5 Avenged Sevenfold - M.I.A
Watching the death toll rise wondering how I'm alive
Stranger's blood on my hands, shot all I can
There were no silent nights watching your brothers all die
To destroy all their plans with no thought of me (No thought of me)
No thought of me

6 Disturbed - Liberate
Waiting for your modern messiah
To take away all the hatred
That darkens the light in your eye
How long will we be

7 Linkin Park - By Myself
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again

☆ All images by shibuyasproxy
☆ Sprites/Mugshots from Sprite Database
☆ A comment if you're taking it would be nice
☆ Enjoy
☆ If you want a ZIP file/singular song, just drop me a line

☆ Emo Urges ‣ Public

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 01:25:30 GMT

I don't know why I'm posting this here. It's not like anyone's going to read it right? Actually, maybe that's better... or whatevers.

I'm in a funk. Mentally, emotionally, creatively, you name it. I think it's come around from the fact that I'm in the house alone so much. I wasn't too bad on Saturday becuase I was out of the house in the morning, volunteering at the charity shop.

Another factor that might be contributing to my 'funk' is my lack of a social life. I lost contact with many of the 'friends' I had when I left college. They all clung together and I lost them. Now practically all of them have gone off to uni while I'm stuck here.

Of the two that I've remained close to - I saw one of them on Tuesday. Before that I hadn't seen her in weeks. I've talked to the other one recently, but it's not the same. They're out working while I'm stuck at home becuase no one wants to hire me - too quiet, not enough experience, and it doesn't help that both the job centre and the national business college - both places being paid by the government to help people like me - are doing fuck all.

I give up. I really do. I have no friends, no money, no life and I don't see the fucking point anymore.

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Now playing: Alanis Morisette - Uninvited

Sod editing this all pretty like. X-Posted from LJ

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 22:25:48 GMT

I think the only thing I've never lied about is the fact that I'm such a fucking bitch.