___________________________________________________ Happy post-birthday? Saturday ,  30 Aug 2008|02:00pm | mood | okay | | music | okay || mood | none | | music | none | Well, yesterday didn't really go how I wanted. I feel like a spoiled brat sitting there saying it like that. I mean, it's not like Cameron didn't take me out on Tuesday, or my friends didn't show up to say happy birthday and give me hugs or anything, and it's not like all of you on here haven't been wonderful. (I really appreciate all the birthday wishes, by the way, not to mention the lj cut on honorcup) I don't know. It just felt like I should be doing something more than the usual that night. Instead, I found myself stuck at Guild, moodily wandering the hallways by myself after awhile. Once again, I feel like some kind of spoiled five year old. :\ Today is going considerably better. I basically went to work for 3 hours. XD; WTF, right? Well, first I get there and some guy buys a huge TV, so I get him to sign up for a credit card. XD For doing that, they gave me yet another stuffed target dog. I got one earlier for getting credit card applications. The first one has a little winter vest and scarf, the other has a kind of safari outfit on or something. XD; Then they asked if someone wanted to go home, and since I thought they were joking I was like "ME!" and so they let me go home. X.x; I would be headed up to Cameron's now, but I have to help mom move all the non-perishable food back up to the kitchen. We took it out before the guys came in to work on our kitchen ceiling which has pretty much been messed up since forever. X.x; Once I do that I'll probably give him a call and head up. That's pretty much all that's going on. I have this week and then I have to return to school. I'm partially looking forward to it, and partially not. X.x; Once again, hard to explain. Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (4)

___________________________________________________ FUCKING AWESOME. Friday ,  29 Aug 2008|02:31am | mood | blah | | music | blah || mood | The Yoshida Brothers-Kodo | | music | The Yoshida Brothers-Kodo | Okay, so for those of you who haven't talked to me yet, I have yet to share my WONDERFUL FREAKING DEAD HARDDRIVE ADVENTURE. Okay, so I got up yesterday morning, turned on my computer and my computer is like LULZ NO HARDDRIVE. Fantastic. Just amazing. I take it to my dad to have him look at it, and he kind of flips out on me, and I get a lecture about taking care of my computer. :\ I try my best to take care of it, but apparently I've done something to ruin the hard drive. The goddamn thing is fried. Long story short, my mother and father drive up to Circuit City and buy a new hard drive for my computer. I now owe my father $110. :\ Money that I don't really have at the moment, especially when I need to buy books, a parking pass, and pay off the rest of my tution because the government sucks and wound up not coving about $100 of it. :| I would have had money from my last paycheck, but all of that went towards school supplies, and ironically, a bookbag with a laptop carrying compartment. Fucking sweet. Thankfully, since I had an external harddrive about 90% of my files were saved, including all my music. I managed to find most of the programs I used to use, but all my brushes, patterns and fonts were lost as far as GIMP is concerned. :\ Oh well, I suppose that's what Deviant Art is for? About the only upside to this is that my laptop now has 300GB of storage as opposed to the 60 I used to have. X.x; What a wonderful present on the day before my birthday. Just fucking epic, right? Ugh. Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (5)

___________________________________________________ Keyboard update. Wednesday ,  27 Aug 2008|02:22am | mood | sleepy | | music | sleepy || mood | none | | music | none | Well, so far so good. It looks like my keyboard has returned to normal working order. I'll let you guys know if this changes, but I'm pretty sure it won't. :) So, false alarm, pretty much. Off to bed with me. Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (2)

___________________________________________________ Possible Hiatus. Tuesday ,  26 Aug 2008|04:05pm | mood | blah | | music | blah || mood | none | | music | none | Hey, I just wanted everyone to know that my computer keyboard is fucked up right now, so I may be away for a bit until I can get it fixed or until the problem corrects itself. It was kind of working before I left for Cameron's today, but it wasn't at 100%, so who knows how it will work when I try to use it tonight. I'll let you know. Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (1)

___________________________________________________ CRY MOAR, AMIRITE Wednesday ,  20 Aug 2008|02:47pm | mood | depressed | | music | depressed | I've been thinking recently, and I've come to a sad realization. The realization that it seems like I'm destined to one of two things whenever I try to do anything and I try to do it well. One, I'm destined for failure. Two, I will suceed only to have said sucess will either be taken for granted, unrecognized, or flawed to some extent. It's always been this way. Why can't I have one goddamn pure win? Just one. (5)

___________________________________________________ Shini's wonderful fucking day of win. (Another wonderful tl;dr rant.) Tuesday ,  19 Aug 2008|02:39pm | mood | aggravated | | music | aggravated || mood | Modest Mouse-This Devil's Workday | | music | Modest Mouse-This Devil's Workday | You know, you think by now I'd figure out that anything having to do with the school district that I graduated from and that my siblings are currently under would be a giant clusterfuck, and obviously not worth the time and effort it takes fucking put up with any of it. Okay, so I take them up to the school to go get their schedules for class. You think this would be a simple deal right? Wrong. First off, due to the fact that they are NOT FINISHED WITH THE ACTUAL FUCKING CONSTRUCTION OF THE SCHOOL, there are no good parking lots. In fact, while we were up there, some of the areas WERE JUST GETTING PAVED. There were no signs on where we COULD park, and at one point I actually had workers telling me to turn around for some goddamn reason. (Which makes no damn sense because they weren't even WORKING on that parking lot). So after 15 minutes of trying to find out where the fuck I'm supposed to park. We get there and see about a million tables set up in no particular order, with groups of parents and children at each one. We keep trying to ask where the hell we're supposed to go, and SURPRISE, SURPRISE, no one fucking knows. Eventually we figure out which table is taking the paperwork, by some miracle of some sort. At this point, I realize I had forgotten the check to give to our optometrist for my sisters' glasses, which we were planning on picking up after we were through with this organizational abortion. However I figure it can't be much longer, they'll turn in their paperwork and go get their schedules and we can leave, right? Wrong again. Turns out that not only do they need to turn in paperwork, but for some reason they need a school ID (Okay, fine.), and for some inexplicable reason, they need to stop at the food and transportation table as well. There are several things wrong with this: 1.) My sisters do not qualify for any transportation. We live close enough to the school that the buses will not bother to come by our house. We're already well aware of this fact, and quite frankly, it's not that big of an issue. We've worked around this before. 2.) The only people who qualify for reduced/free lunch in our school system are people already on public assistance. We are not on public assistance, so we do not qualify. Once again, something we're already aware of. My question is, if we already know we qualify for NEITHER OF THESE, WHY IN THE NINE HELLS SHOULD WE STAND OUTSIDE IN LINE, IN THE SUN, IN 88 DEGREE WEATHER HEAT (PROBABLY HIGHER WITH THE HUMIDITY) TO HAVE SOME FUCKSTICK TELL US SOMETHING WE ALREADY FUCKING KNOW? Well, with this information in hand, I figured that it will be awhile, so I run home and grab the check and not to mention a couple of sodas for my sisters and I. Thankfully, by the time I return they're actually done with the entire process, and we can get to the optometrist without any problems. All in all, about a hour and 30 minutes of my life was wasted because the fine people of SCS couldn't fucking organize a finding of their own ass with both hands tied behind their back. The really frustrating part about this is that I should have come to expect this. It's not like this is the first time they've completely and utterly failed on all accounts to have an event that makes something resembling sense. I mean, what the hell I was I expecting, a well organized, neat, and easy process that moved everyone through and quickly as possible with little to no frustration? Where the hell do I think I am? Ugh. Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (9)

___________________________________________________ HAY GUISE! Friday ,  15 Aug 2008|09:17pm I think you guys should join me and kirie on Solia. It's a fun time waster, if anything. PLEASE AND THANK YOU, Shinimegami (18)

___________________________________________________ ORLY YAHOO? Friday ,  15 Aug 2008|01:10pm | mood | amused | | music | amused || mood | Bloodhound Gang-Fire Water Burn | | music | Bloodhound Gang-Fire Water Burn | YOU SURE YOU WANNA ASK ME MY OPINION OF YOUR SERVICE RIGHT NOW? I MEAN, REALLY? Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (2)

___________________________________________________ I love how I'm suddenly the bad guy in 90% of conversations with my family. Friday ,  15 Aug 2008|12:05pm | mood | frustrated | | music | frustrated || mood | Weezer-Pork and Beans | | music | Weezer-Pork and Beans | Okay, here's the backstory: A couple months ago we rescued a dog from being put to sleep by his dumbass old lady of an owner. This dog was kept in a cage for 22 out of 24 hours of a day, and lived in the middle of bum-fuck nowhere, with no other real contact with other dogs or people. The dog was obviously neglected, with sore, splayed feet, an ear infection, and so boney that his spine was visible. We went to see the dog and decided at the very least, his main temperament was good enough that maybe if we take him home and let him get used to better surroundings, he'll settle down. Not the case. The dog has bitten my sister on two occasions and my mother on one. All three times he's drawn blood. My mother is fed up as our tries to make him more socialize have failed, so she's going to be taking him to a no-kill shelter about 20 minutes from here. Now, due to this entire business my mother has decided that she wants to have another dog to replace the one that we're giving to the shelter. This is where my LOVELY conversation with my father this morning comes in. He asks my opinion on a name he wants to give the new dog. I don't really like it, and as soon as I say so I get grumbling from not only him, but my sisters whom he wasn't fucking talking to (I believe the words were "She ALWAYS does this!" or "I knew she was going to say that!" or something equal to make me sound like I'm a huge bitch just being subversive because I can or something). Then, my father, in so many words, basically makes it rather clear that since I'm going to be finishing school and moving out soon that it doesn't matter whether I like it or not. Obviously, my first reaction is to ask why the hell he bothered to ask me then if he was so set on this name. Apparently, this means I'm obviously freaking out/causing drama. I was unaware that this and/or disagreeing with them = drama, but apparently it does. Then my father goes on to say that it was because my mother had moved on to other names and both he and my sisters were looking to push for this particular name. So I point out that he basically just wanted someone to help "gang up" on mom on this name. Maybe "gang up" wasn't the right term to use, but that's essentially all they wanted me for: a consensus so that he could push the idea so that mom felt she really couldn't object to it. Basically, he gets all offended that I called him on his shit, so cue the fucking ranting to turn me into the fucking bad guy, with my oh so holier-than-thou sisters interjecting about how I'm a bitch every few seconds. And, of course, the conversation ends with the ever popular "IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT GTFO." He wasn't looking for my goddamn opinion. My opinions mean jackshit to this man; they have ever since I was small. I should have fucking known. "Well, you're not paying for it, so shut your mouth." "No one here asked your opinion." "This doesn't involve you." I should have just said whatever and walked the fuck away. I should know better than to bother. Why am I so damn stupid when it comes to my parents? I fall for their verbal traps all the goddamn time. I just don't get it. Besides that one time when I realized my mother was trying to bait me into an argument, I've been so stupid about falling for their shit. And every time, I wind up looking like the bad guy; the bitch. The one person who ruins everything and contributes nothing. Meanwhile, my sisters adjust their goddamn halos and throw their own personal bibles at me. Kind of backwards how such angels are allowed to throw the word "bitch" around. Anyway, I'm sorry for the tl;dr again. Seems like I do nothing but complain around here anymore. :\ Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (34)

___________________________________________________ Coming out swinging. Thursday ,  07 Aug 2008|09:20am | mood | angry | | music | angry || mood | Yuka Funakoshi - Morning Bird | | music | Yuka Funakoshi - Morning Bird | Okay, so, this isn't directed at anyone online. It's pretty much the entire whole of my student organization at school. I've been thinking recently, and between that and the lack of sleep, I have some things I need to get off my chest. Whether I'll actually say this in front of them during the new school year or not, IDK. ( To my WONDERFUL people in Adventurer's Guild ) I know, I know. tl;dr Had to get it out of my system before I actually fucking say ALL of this to these people at Guild. Your Goddess and Mistress, Shinimegami (1)

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