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September 6th, 2008
06:00 pm kuroitenshi [Link]	Ending it I shouldn't have waited as long as I did to make this post and yes it is a completely open post, but all comments will be disabled. I'm not looking for drama, but remember you posted about it in your journal, or I should say you posted up one thing brought up in your journal. It wasn't just about that or this. It's about many things that I've tried to bring up on most definitely more than one occasion, but I've noticed you only want to see one thing and ignore the rest. What this comes down to is that we are completely incompatible as friends let alone anything else. From earlier on we began a cycle of good times and bad ones, in the beginning the good out weighted the bad, but as time has gone on I have become your scapegoat for all of your frustrations and sometimes even when your not. Now before you go denying it, I believe wholeheartedly that you have no knowledge of doing this to me. I've been watching very carefully, especially the last 2-3 years and with other people you seem like a completely normal person with every day kind of issues, but when it comes to me, you put me down, say things that make me think or feel I'm not worthy of being around your or speak to you, which over the years has taken a big toll on how I act with others. I've become paranoid that they will react a certain way when I do or say something, it's only recently have I started to work out of this, not everyone is going to react the way you do and you always react the same way to me. It's why we can't be friends. I believe that you have changed, but with others, I think it is only a matter of time before the cycle will begin again if we start talking again. It's happen more times than I can count. You mention that you're very happy now being yourself in this past month in and a half. Notice how often we've been talking to one another in that time. Longer if I could have helped it, when the doll thing happen, something else happened at the same time which I'm pretty sure you don't remember at all, but that hurt so much and made me so angry, that was why I cut you and I made a very very angry post about it saying I never never wants to speak to you again. Even know this hurts me to write it, but I have to do it. I can't continue to lead you to believe everything is peachy, because it's not, I can't remember anymore the last time things were peachy, in any part of our friendship. And I tried ways on my own to make it better, every attempt failed and you probably didn't even notice. I tested didn't things, watch what I said or did. For some reason you always treated me differently, at least now I have a name for it. And even with our worst fights you come back for more, we hurt each other constantly and yet you want more? When does the bad outweigh the good? For me it was the last fight (that nondoll part) and the last time I came over your house when you thought that the computer was more interesting than I was. I thought friends were suppose to spend time with one another and though you didn't spend your whole time on there, over 50% is a little much in my book. When was the last time we actually did something other than watch movies anyways? It hurt spending time with you after awhile because our RP stuff fell out and you would tell me about how much fun you were having with everyone else. Must have been better than when it was with me because you would have talked about that, but also tried to talk about what we could do and I remember you trying a couple of times. But our love for something died and when it did all of the RP stuff fell apart. When that happened, we only had movies to watch anymore and nothing else to do except talk about that or who said what to who online. I'm attempting to keep this as organized as possible, I'm sorry if I ever got off target. For those of you that talk to her I thought about cutting you out of my life because I wanted absolutely nothing to do with her anymore, I don't even care if I get my very very late xmas presents anymore that I'm assuming I'll never get anyways because they are always either missing or undone. I got use to that. I'll send your birthday present to the place I have Atsu's address at. -but people, it wouldn't be fair for those of you that do have a normal relationship with her and that wouldn't be fair to myself that does consider some of you out there friends and not people that will run to tell her stuff, I got rid of those kind of people on my journal a very long time ago. But please know I don't want to discuss this any further after this post, this was a very long time coming as I stated at the beginning and I want nothing more than to finally say that this is finished, leaving it open for so long only made it worse for me mentally. To you....I do not hate you, but I cannot be your friend.
September 5th, 2008
07:36 pm thefangirlof [cake] [Link]	I'm A Fangirl I Am thefangirlof Paramore (band). (Leave a comment)
07:14 pm iam [cake] [Link]	Do you know who I am? iam the Rose Tyler (Doctor Who) of Scribbld. (Leave a comment)
05:57 pm ismylove [cake] [Link]	No one loves you more doctor who (TV show character) ismylove david tennant (actor) ismylove (Leave a comment)
September 4th, 2008
06:29 pm system [Link]	[DOWNTIME] This morning and into this evening we experienced some unscheduled downtime. At this time we belive some network cables went bad, and have since replaced and reboot the systems to make sure everything was running properly. We'll continue to closely monitor the network over the next few hours to make sure it's nothing else that caused the issue. Thanks for your patience and understanding. (Leave a comment)
September 3rd, 2008
10:32 pm jimmy [Link]	Spore!in Today was a rather uneventful day. I did get to configure an iPod touch with a Cisco VPN, rather interesting. It's nice to know that now the 2.0 software does support Cisco VPN IPSec stuff. Other then that, nothing to wonderful happened. I finally remembered to bring home my saddle & bridle so that I could clean it. Hopefully I can do that either Friday or this weekend sometime. Tomorrow at work we've got no work, but rather some wellness thing we need to attend. I don't think I shall complain as I am getting paid to not work, sounds good. I think emilie is going to come and pick me up too, which is going to be awesome. Today there were absolutely no seats on the bus on the way up to work. After work, I did work at the barn, was nice seeing my horse. Apparently they had some hail there, but he didn't mind it, I guess the skimpy fly sheet worked for even that. The other horses, were like, "ahhhh!! what's this stuff hitting me!!". LOL. Anyways, as the subject of this entry mentions, SPORE! I did get my hands on a copy, and yes I've been playing it since about 8pm this evening. It's an amazing game, I think I shall definitely purchase the Galactic Edition as this game definitely deserves my $50 or whatever. Emilie loves it to, we're definitely going to make some awesome stuff. I finally got the Xserve rebuilt, my MacBook and Emilie's MacBook rebuilt. Everything but that Cisco switch has been fixed. At some point either on Friday or this weekend, I've got work on that Xserve for Keith and I's consulting appointment next weekend. Hrmm, so Emilie and I are going to watch a movie now! Current Mood: good Tags: apple, friends, horseback riding, mac os x, mac os x server, server administration, spore, video games, work (Leave a comment)
09:50 pm kuroitenshi [Link]	Give me quick drawing ideas...GO! Current Mood: creative (15 comments \| Leave a comment)
07:57 pm iam [diabolikal] [Link]	Do you know who I am? I wanted to drop my claim on Esther Greenwood. Instead, iam the Skwisgaar Skwigelf (Metalocalypse) of Scribbld. Current Music: OOMPH! - In deinen Huften (Leave a comment)
06:42 am thefangirlof [jetfire] [Link]	used to be glaceon. Just letting the mods know! (Leave a comment)
06:35 am iamthe [jetfire] [Link]	I am the ____ of Scribbld iamthe Tohru Honda(Fruits Basket) of Scribbld! iamthe Yuiko(Loveless) of Scribbld! iamthe Glaceon(Pokemon) of Scribbld! iamthe Sailor ChibiUsa(Sailor Moon) of Scribbld! iamthe Mew Ichigo(Tokyo Mew Mew) of Scribbld! (1 comment \| Leave a comment)
06:33 am ismylove [jetfire] [Link]	Used to be glaceon. Just lettin the mods know! (Leave a comment)
06:31 am iam [jetfire] [Link]	Do you know who I am? Used to be glaceon Dropping my claim on Glaceon. iam the Chii(Chobits) of Scribbld! (Leave a comment)
September 1st, 2008
10:14 pm jimmy [Link]	A Bit of an Update... Horses - I've been extremely busy so beyond working at the barn I've not really done a lot with Nippet. It totally sucks. every since I've started working at UVM I've just felt to dead to ride or anything. I've been telling myself to bring my tack home for like the last 2 weeks and every time I forget. I just want to give them a good cleaning, since the last time I really did it was probably a year ago or more, lame. I noticed his fly sheet that I just bought him already has a rip in it. I also should buy better straps because the one from his winter blanket are just way to elasticky. I also noticed the belly straps come undone about every day. I've been meaning to order some fly spray for about month now, but that never happened either, god, I am like the worst horse owner ever. I guess I won't really be needing it anymore as the temperatures are pretty much cold again and the flies are gone, I'll have to monitor it though, if they seem bad, I'll definitely pick up a bottle at the very least, the gallon refill can wait till next Spring. I definitely hope I can get some better time with him Wednesday even though it'll be after a UVM day...it's not like I've got anything else scheduled. Geek - I had an epically and way to long of a battle with Mac OS X Server and a new client and getting it on as a mobile home directory. What a pain in the ass!! The home directory is still all messed up, the permissions are all screwed up, mostly for the Public and Sites folder which sucks, but whatever. I think eventually at some point, I'll rebuild the server and then go from there. That might be a project for next weekend. I've been working with morgan to get one of the Cisco switches working. We did manage to update the 2924 with new settings which is awesome, but the 2900XL is still being a pain in the ass... Other - Work at UVM is going. I definitely do not have the right tools I need to perform my duties completely. It's really lame, there's no software disks, I don't really have my own computer still. emilie went down to PA this weekend to visit her folks. I stayed here cause I have a buncha stuff to do. Umm, nothing else I really feel like writing about now, so have a good one folks. Current Mood: content Current Music: Still Remains - Dropped From The Cherry Tree \| Scrobbled by Last.fm Tags: equine, friends, horseback riding, network administration, server administration, work (Leave a comment)
August 29th, 2008
10:42 am hitsuzen [Link]	025. ARGGGG! CODE GEASS IS SO CONFUSING! It's pissing me off! Current Mood: aggravated (Leave a comment)
August 28th, 2008
04:02 am jimmy [Link]	Daily Twitterings 08:03 The one day I am early for the bus it's late, arggh! # 08:59 Finally at work, apparently the bus broke down so that's why it was late. # 10:09 Note to self: Do not create the config file for Mantis previous to installing it. Side Note: At least I figured it out and it's installed. # 10:19 Heading into a meeting, hopefully it's quick. # 11:10 Done meeting, have a bunch of web work to do and people to email. # 12:21 Can't work on web stuff as I do not have access to the right folders yet. Argh! # 12:21 @italia2008 - No indoor? :( # 14:33 Working on a brochure in Pages, hopefully it's okay. # 15:57 Taking the early bus home. # 18:15 Home from the barn, another hour till Emilie gets home, I think I might play some COD4. # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter! (Leave a comment)
August 27th, 2008
04:03 am jimmy [Link]	Daily Twitterings 10:15 It's been a rather busy morning, hooking up computers and printers and whatnot. # 12:03 Back in the office after installing FileMaker Pro 9 on a bunch of machines. I feel hungry! # 13:09 Emails, blogs and some forums... # 13:11 Hello to @sparklesperson - my new friend! # 14:42 Just about done with the computer inventory list. # 16:31 I definitely need COD4 tonight, @morgant & @clev, you guys better be on tonight!! # 16:48 Waiting for the bus to come and pick me up so I can go h # 16:50 Waiting for the bus to come so I can go home! # 17:51 Home finally. Bike ride at 7PM with John, just enough time to get some food :D # 17:52 @friesianarts - Hiya new friend! # 20:26 Ah, I almost forgot it was Xbox night tonight, eesh, we'll be playing Call of Duty 4, hit me up at 'vtequine' on LIVE! # 22:28 Had to quit Xbox night early, but @clev and I got in a few good rounds, @morgant is MIA :( Sleep now. # 22:52 Xbox Live: vtequine is currently Offline. Last seen 26 minutes ago playing Call of Duty 4 (via Xbox Live Nation) # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter! (Leave a comment)
August 26th, 2008
08:09 pm jimmy [Link]	Work-O-Rama Yesterday, I had a day full of consulting and other work. I had a client come over in the AM for a data transfer which went very well, quite easy. I also tended to some of their basic computer questions. Then I ordered a pizza and it was very good. After that I had another consulting appointment and that too was very simple. Small Dog screwed up the clients computer and I just went in and fixed it. I don't know if I would say screwed up, but they didn't change the things they had changed back to what they originally were leaving the client rather confused. Either way, I got them all fixed up and they seemed pleased. So here's a bit of a rant. Back in the spring the town deemed that one of the bridges leading from our town into the next was not safe anymore and had to replaced. This bridge was pretty important to a lot of people as it meant we didn't have to drive on the interstate but rather on this "back road". I prefer it personally cause I love driving with my windows down, and it's not that great at 7mph when you're on the interstate, anyways, when I was consulting, it was the last road right before the bridge. After my appointment I was planning on going to the barn to get my chores done and whatnot. So instead of simply being able to drive over the bridge and then 10 minutes to the barn, I had to drive all the way back home, get on the interstate, then drive all the way back. It was worst thing ever, complete waste of time. The good news is that a temporary bridge will be completed within the next week or two. After that whole ordeal, I finally made it to the barn, and got my chores done. When I got home, I hung out for a bit, and then my good friend Clifford (who's been in Afghanistan for the last 4 years and finally got back into the states about 2 months ago) came over with his girlfriend. We ended up going out to grab a bite and then we went to the skatepark in Barre where we proceeded to "skateboard" if that's what you want to call it. I haven't really skated in 4 years or so. We definitely had a good time though. Today, I worked at UVM, nothing really special came out of it. I am thinking about changing to Mantis from OSTicket, mostly because I know Mantis can be a bit more flexible and has more option...although it might be possible to tweak OSTicket so that it does a better job, who knows....I'll try to figure it out tomorrow. Hopefully I can convince them to purchase both OS X Leopard Server and a PC to drop Linux on to for another server. My buddy John also came over tonight and we went for a bike ride. He basically just left last summer right after we started hanging out. But apparently it was all for the better. He's living in Manchester, NH, doing IT/software engineer stuff. Had an awesome time with him, caught up, was a lot of fun. He'll be going into a new job in a week or something. He's got an office right above Canonical (the Ubuntu people!) which is awesome. Well I've got to get some dinner cause I've not really eaten all day, I think we'll watch some Doug or some movie tonight, hope you kids are doing well! Current Mood: tired Tags: consulting, friends, server administration, skateboarding, work (Leave a comment)
04:03 am jimmy [Link]	Daily Twitterings 08:59 Waking up, brushing teeth, consulting at 10am this morning and another appointment at 2:30pm. # 09:32 Patches for a MAASF airsoft patch are WAAAY to expensive, it's almost the price of playing a day in Ghost Town. # 11:01 Finished up my morning consulting, attempting to get in contact with my boss. # 11:28 Looks like we're ordering pizza for lunch! # 12:37 Back with the pizza, looks delicious. # 16:51 Done at the barn, heading home now. # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter! (Leave a comment)
August 25th, 2008
04:02 am jimmy [Link]	Daily Twitterings 09:28 Converting some more anime, and I think I shall play some CoD4 now. # 14:53 Extracting new maps, vmaps and dbc files for the World of Warcraft server. # 23:09 Annoyed when people can't come to me with issues, they rather go to a higher up, it really pisses me the fuck off. # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter! (Leave a comment)
August 24th, 2008
04:02 am jimmy [Link]	Daily Twitterings 11:17 Giving the cats a bath! # 14:10 Converting some anime with this app I bought, MKVTools, I guess I pretty much paid $5 for a pretty interface to some free appz, worth it tho # 14:41 The web interface for Transmission is very cool! # 15:09 Just got 2nd place in a free-for-all in CoD4. Woot! # 18:37 Just found out Jet Li has the same birthday as me! # 23:19 Just finished Drillbit Taylor, rather amusing, converting some anime and getting a few Jet Li movies. # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter! (Leave a comment)

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