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Hey all...moving to LJ

2008-07-30T17:49:26Z

Yea the resentment I have for Scribbld just gets worse and worse unfortunately so I am moving to LJ. i think i will be MUCH happier there. My username there is: zellywelly

I had signed up with this same user name but for some reason i cant remember the password or email i used to sign up for it lol so im SOL and had to sign up with a shorter version of my long lived blogging name.

So anyway anyone with an LJ add me and If you could leave your LJ names here for me that'd be great. If LJ sucks my next step is going to IJ. I just want to be at a place where i can easily customize my journal and be away from drama and stop HEARING about drama.

I have PLENTY to talk about now so i wont be MIA like i have been here on LJ.

Toodles guys. I miss you all

WTF MINI

2008-06-29T18:55:03Z

My dog i dont know WHY or HOW she does this but she has an obsession with eating needles and pins. I dont know how the fuck she somehow just FINDS them but she is always going around the house like it's her GOAL to find them and she always find them somewhere and she eats them....im like WTF u PSYCHO dog...that's gonna tear up your mouth you idiot!!!

I don't effin get it

Bound @ Red Lounge

2008-06-29T05:58:58Z

So last night I went to Bound and was happy to see that Brendon was there, Tabby went with Nick, Caitlin showed up later, juice, Leonidas, and Matt were there along with some regulars and Ashley came too. It was a fun night, cyber night but I didnt have naything cyber to wear so i went in all white. Im too tired to really describe anything but i will just say this....

It was fucking FUN. One of the best nights at bound I have had in a long time and I got my ass handed to me. I got spanked with a paddle a few times by everyone but Arthur slapped my ass so hard right below it actually that he left a handprint welt lol it hurts so bad. I have a ton of scars and bruises too. Good times, they sting like hell but i dont care too much haha.

Talk to ya later guys :)

LOL @ Colleen

2008-06-21T18:54:37Z

She made a good point saying i dont update much here when I am actually happy. LOL go figure, drama and sadness spawn most journal entries with a lot of people i'd say.

Well Me and Brendon are still seeing eachother. That's my BOO lol...he calls me his boo it's cute. At first I didn't like him calling me that but im ok with it now. 13 days till vacation! Its gonna be so fun and im gonna get SO SHITTY. i cant wait. let's see what has been going on in my life lately?Well I been working, going to bars, spending a lot of time in DC, getting a lot of parking tickets, avoiding people, etc etc. Yeah I got nothing.

How about I just show you this:

My Boo bought me those pink glasses the other day :) We went to Pentagon City and I got some stuff from Victoria Secret too. I fancied this picture up for you Colleen lol.

Oh yea for those of you who knew me on GJ, You have heard of me talk about Indira before. She is moving to boston tomorrow :( well at least she will be more reason to go out there now that Charlie is out there too now. I am trying to think of things to do tonight with her out in DC but I know Octavia is having a Captain Party at her place :) Might see if she wants to do that. I was gonna take little nikki with me tonight but she cant go OUT anywhere since she is underaged and if she drinks she will try to rape me....UGH.

Thinking about rockin dreds today :) See ya guys.

zellywellywoowo @ 2008-06-18T14:01:00

2008-06-18T18:13:30Z

scribbld is a bit annoying for multiple reasons. Thinking about switching over to a new site but i just don't know where the best place would be.

anyway, spent yesterday with Brendon. It was REALLY nice. I spent the night Monday night. We went out for a couple beers, met a couple of his friends and was asked by some creepy guy at the bar who kept getting close to me and making awkward and random conversation if he and i were married to which i QUICKLY replied YES and he pat Brendon on the shoulder and said "Excellent choice man" and then he left us the fuck alone finally.

Went back to his casa and stayed up kinda late on account of us ~~doing the dirty~~

Well we spent yesterday at the Wharf in DC then we went back to the casa and he did a little work and we laid in bed being lazy and cuddling. ~~we had a LOT of sex. This guy can have multiple orgasms like a pro. He never stops and when we finally do we go at it again an hour later or something haha~~ mmm life is good.

17 more days until vacation. Can't wait.

A little Hot, a little cold

2008-06-15T14:59:55Z

Last night was really fun. Went to Hardtimes with Tabby and Nick. The ususal suspects were there. It was a AWESOME time. i actually PLAYED pool this time and evevrytime i played solo or on a team i won! We had a 9ball screw ball game...two rounds of sheer made up bullshit where if you got #1 in you got a slap in the face, 5 was gut punch, 7 was ball punch, 9 was taint pinching and so on. Nick kept WANTING TO WIN it was hilarious but tabby always got the taint pinch in the end, which means she won both rounds.

I just got the Angelina Jolie Entertainment Weekly mag in the mail. Was looking forward to reading this issue :) now i have something to do at work.

I also just recieved a birthday card form my brother Drew. My birthday was in April but he always manages to do something for me and my sister whenever he can but I never EXPECT him to. I read it and for the first time actually cried...why? because I have another sister and 5 brothers who don't say shit to us. They dont treat us like family, and the ONLY one who does, the only one we are closed to is Drew and that sucks. He is amazing and i love him so much but what about the other 4 brothers?

We aren't the closest family in the world but back when we were younger we WERE. We had the best family events but we just dont anymore. no one talks, I dont get it. Daryl used to be there for us and REALLY treat us like a big brother should up until he went into the Army then he changed, go figure. Now he is just a drunk hermit who had the same gf for 10+ years, FINALLY got engaged to her then dumped her....

It's just sad. I want my family back.

What the blazing haphazzards?

2008-06-13T22:54:58Z

I can't sleep very well with Brendon anymore. That sucks cuz we used to just pass out comfortably together but since it's gotten hotter neither of us sleep well at all. He was a little down about it earlier. "We HAVE to find a way we can sleep together again because I can't sleep for shit these days and I like sleeping next to you" - I quote.

I agree, neither can I. I went to work straight from his place today and I passed out on the couch in the back room the second the doctor left which was at 2 and didn't wake up until damn near 5pm and i get OFF at 4....i got paid for it though so haha sweet.

It's so nice out but im so broke and gas is not cheap so i suppose im stuck inside all night :/ fuckin ay.

MAS*H

2008-06-12T03:53:42Z



		I will marry James.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in New Jersey in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 2 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Purple Prelude.
		I will spend my days as a Graphics teacher, and live happily ever after.

HOW PERFECT IS THAT!? Hahahah everything is awesome, id love for it to happen for real....tho after a while id want a HOUSE in jersey....lol cant live in an apartment with 2 kids forever.

Sexual Healing

2008-06-12T00:55:28Z

So I was thinking and contemplating on sensuality and the things that may or may not lead to sex. I am looking at 2 people with their lips pressed together, and that is all. What makes a kiss so wonderful? What makes someone elses mouth on yours feel right? I never really thought about it, what makes a kiss special, why a kiss can lead to so much more.

It's strange to me. It feels wonderful, it's nice to feel soft lips on yours but it's also so very strange to me how the simple act of kissing someone can manipulate feelings of love and lust. A kiss can make a friendship an intimate relationship. A kiss can lead to the sensual traces of someone's hands against your body, then it drives your body to want to melt into that person, it makes you crave more, it sparks emotions, needs, desires.

It's a mouth touching another mouth....

Marzipan. Not really.

2008-06-11T03:29:50Z

I love the way Brendon looks at me and touches me. The little comments he makes under his breath, it's so sexy <3

This Plurk thig is really funny. Tabby, Carole, Suhail and another friend of mine joined and all we do is go toe-to-toe with insults and funny comments all day long. ITS SO FUN. Great way to kill time at work and at home.

I can't stop watching porn >:\

zellywellywoowo @ 2008-06-09T14:22:00

2008-06-09T18:24:50Z

3.5 more hours of death!

Im about to fall asleep here at work, just struggling to stay awake sucks. It's hotter than a hooker on 9th street out.

I had a great lunch though and the only thing keeping me awake is Vile City and Plurk.

Plurk.

2008-06-09T05:32:24Z

PLURK YO

You should join Plurk. You briefly type in your thoughts or feelings and your friends or other people can comment or relate. Its kind of nifty.

I love colleen

2008-06-07T20:56:16Z

okay so in an attempt to make me feel better and get my mind off things, Colleen, after reading my last entry invited me over to make cookies and plant tomatoes and such though me helping was just watching lol. I'm a professional watcher, it's what i DOES.

So we chit chat, look at her wedding photos which were fucking cute as hell, made me jealous all over again, talked about a lot of random shit lol like ghosts and babies and then we hit the tequila. She poisoned me with yummy tequila, I got pretty drunk from it and then when kyle got there after work he caught up and we watched Juno.

I thought it was really sweet though that Colleen tried to get Brendon over there knowing how i was feeling down about it all and though he got off late, he agreed to go out of his way and hang out. THANK YOU COLLEEN. That meant a lot <3

So we drank a little and we all went to bed. We were behaved btw Colleen lol we were too fucking tired to do anything so we past out. He needed to get home so I just drove him home which is why you may notice the stuff in the bathroom is not used lol but THANK YOU FOR YOUR ACCOMODIES :p

*sigh* I like him a lot...we didnt talk much last night, didnt do much of anything really, just slept then i took him home....kind of a waste but at least I got to see him. Tonight is ladies night in Adams Morgan, mayeb i can see him later since i will be in DC

Waiting is no fun

2008-06-06T17:08:21Z

I find myself in all this down time at work and at home with no power, getting lost in my thoughts and when i get lost in them i get really confused and start thinking things I shouldnt think. Start wondering things i shouldnt but i am only human and I am curious but how far does curiosity take you when you are really alone or bored?

I have been very happy with how things are going in my life minus always being broke from shitty pay but Brendon is what makes me happy however his work schedule is so conflicting. We went from seeing eachother everyday to seeing eachother once a week if we get lucky. He works 12 hours a day 7 days a week (something like that) and its not always like that and I have been understanding and patient but then i find myself wondering about other people. If they'd have more time, what it'd be like, etc.

Those thoughts make me kind of upset because I dont want to think about anyone other than brendon because I am happy with him though we are not an official couple, he makes me happy, and so why would I want to ruin that? I have actually been thinking about inviting Mike out if i go out this weekend. I was thinking about another person as well...3 people actually just because I had a good relationship with them then it kind of *poof* in thin air...left me wondering if things could be the same as it was.

*sigh* Guess i should just be happy with what i have right? I normally am but I don't know how much longer I can just sit here and wait.

Picture dump & some things most interesting

2008-06-03T23:14:17Z

Is it just me or whenever you have finally got yourself in a relationship, all these fucking guys come out of the woodworks to holler at you. Especially guys that you have had a crush on since for ever....SO not fair. im fucking MORE than happy with Brendon but its SO not fair that these guys are coming about now. I went to Hard times last night with tabby to see a bar tending competition. It was fun, didnt watch the shit but hung out with friends and such instead. This guy cuts in my convo and goes "Don't I know you?" and I was naturally gonna hit him with the Auto GTFO like i normally go but I actually looked at him and saw ....'Omfg it's Mike from junior High' I was like ...oh yea...Mike...From Walt Whitman....he was like HOLY FUCKING SHIT...YOU ARE SO FUCKING SEXY. I CANT BELIEVE THIS LOOK HOW HOT U R....i was like 'oh fuckin great ...'

I had the BIGGEST crush on him back in the day and he is super cute and looks the same and acts the same only he's more muscular and has facial hair....SHIT...why now? So we talk and he is all on my nuts like a squirrel and then he grabs me when he goes to leave and asks me to give him a kiss..... I was like "ARE U SERIOUS? I havent seen you for how many years and you are going to be that bold like we are friends like that?" and he smiled and said "But ... ur so fuckin hot" so I kissed my fingers and with that same hand smacked the shit out of him.

Apparently he is in some band here (of 9 years now) called UNKNOWN. he asked if we wanted to go on tour with them and play along since we are in a band too. I told him id run it by the mates but i dont think we are gonna be up for it...i know im kinda not.

Anyway PICS.

Looked like the Apocolypse was upon us here:

And finally Mike from Junior High

Far right

Far right again

Bottom right

Weekend Update with ZELLY

2008-06-01T21:01:48Z

I really just checked in to read everyone elses entries today. BUT now that im on I might as well tell you about my weekend.

Aside of what i already blogged about for yesturday, last night was kind of a wreck. I went to DC to hang with Brendon. I met with him and Pat at some place for dinner. It was nice, i love Pat he's really funny. During Dinner, tabby and caitlin are calling me talking about plans to go hang in dc. Tabby changes her mind, brendon is tired so i tell cailtin not to come and i bail on arhtur and matt. well Tabby changes her mind, i call cailtin and tell her to come and still bail on amtt and arthur because tabby and matt were kind of hookin up and tabby was gonna be with her new guy so i didnt want drama.

Well Brendon and I go back to his place, he passes out cuz he works 12 hours a day 7 days a week and I tell him to sleep till they arrive (which was supposed to be a half hour later) Well when Tabby or Caitlin say a time, add an hour or 2 ALWAYS. so they come over 2 hours later when brendon is still passed out and im getting sleepy and sketching him sleeping out of boredom. He wakes up to go out, we all go to this place around the way and had a good time. Caitlin is her usual promiscuous drunk and happy self, Tabby and Nick are doing their thing and me and Brendon are chillin till cailtin dissappears and comes back with ARTHUR AND MATT....I was like OH....NO. Luckily Matt wasnt his typical asshole self, he asked me a few questions, got over it and enjoyed himself despite the fact that Tabby and nick wouldn't take the dicks out of eachothers asses.

Anyway me and brendon leave, Arthur apparently broke up with Lori which was a SHOCK. he is a swinger, so was she and they were perfect for eachother given his personality and the things he does, she never minded cuz they were both open minded. I NEVER seen him get that bad so he got tore up, threw up and passed out pretty much. he was not in a good place.

~~The sex afterwards was really good too haha~~ SAY WHAT?

Battle Royale @ Work

2008-05-31T23:08:45Z

so it finally happened. I flipped the fuck out on Dr. Adair. See I did my normal routine, go out and have lunch when i want...i NEVER asked before and NEVER told him i was going for MONTHS and there were never issues. All of a sudden today because I went with my sister and her co-worker who work next door, when i get back he FLIPS OUT ON ME!

He was yelling at me about how i went off to go fuck around and dick around with them and he had to eat shit when a patient came in blah blah so I cursed him out telling him that his mother fucking ass goes on hour long break with the SAME GUY TABBY AND I WENT WITH TODAY to holler at girls, he leaves his patients waiting for an hour and i have to tell them he is doing a procedure or something important so they arent waiting just so he can get his rocks off. I told him he has the NERVE when he cancels a whole day of appointments to go GOLFING. he has the NERVE when i do this EVERYDAY with or WITHOUT patients in the office and there is no problem but the ONE TIME I go with other people he has a fucking problem so I asked him to explain what the fucking deal is really about.

We were screaming and cursing at eachother for 20 minutes before i told him to go fuck himself and act like a real professional doctor for once and I didnt have to take that shit from him when i did NOTHING WRONG. I got my shit and was headed out the door when he lowered his tone and tried to be nicer. Which at that point i told him it was already way too late and i was out of there. Fuck him.

How Boring

2008-05-31T01:52:55Z

I miss Matt. I miss knowing he was someone I could talk to everyday about anything. I sent him a text telling him I miss him being that friend I could counton cuz he called me randomly (after not hearing from him for months) Just to say hi and chit chat He was excited to know we were coming up in July but I wish it'd be the same. I just miss not feeling like he could give a shit less now.

Anyway, I really wanna get my shit back from Josh but he says he is busy 24-7 which is crap since I can see him online playing XBOX all the time. and I know he has plenty of fucking time to go to BUNGALOWS on Thursdays.

*sigh* I haven't seen Brendon in a while. Makes me feel distant....my feelings are all loopy. I like him but when we aren't around eachother i miss him like crazy then i times I think I might not care....but I know i do...I don't know what that's all about.

Mike Called me. Haven't seen him since the last Masquerade Ball in the summer and haven't spoken to him for a couple of years (on the phone or in person) so it was a surprise hearing from him. He asked me to go to Georgetown with him for a bit on Thursday, I didn't go, then he invited me to EXPOSURE and i didn't go...idk I don't go because i know that he used to have a thing for me and me seeing brendon, it can't be good to hang with another guy who i think may have feelings for me though when we see eachother he does his own thing so ...idk....

This is him btw.

Always loved that pic. I feel free these days though. California was good, going to Jersey in july for a week. been goingt o new places and having a life again. It feels good but there are many things I miss from my past but it's not worth getting in to.

Sayonara for now.

Goth Prom and College Park

2008-05-26T17:23:13Z

This weekend has been fun as shit. Gonna take a few days of rest to recooperate but it's so worth it. Thursday night was Goth Prom, we saw a good handful of people we knew there, music was good, the outfits were the BEST part, everyone went all out for the most part. In the pictures I will show you, the girl in the black mask is Tabby, in the pictures with her, im the one in all black and the top hat lol. Her and cowboy looked good together and Kyle and Colleen looked fucking awesome, like they were in the 20's.

Friday was Carole's bday, she came up from SC to celebrate and the guys in College Park threw a Car Bomb party that we took her too. She had a lot of fun making out with Leonidas aka Chris. We played a shitload of KINGS and got pretty shitfaced lol, lots of cool people at that party.

Saturday I had to work, we went to Olive garden for dinner and I went home and passed out while Tabby and Carole went to Brit's in woodbridge and got shitfaced. Sunday was a relaxing day. we went to Oldtown for a hangover picnic which was nice, we brought the dogs and laid out on a blanket. Carole went home while me and tabby went back to oldtown to pick up brendon, got thai food, went to play pool at HT, then I went to Brendon's.

NOW everyone is fucking gone or working, i dont have SHIT to do, im tired, bored, and lonely. BOO.

ANYWAY, PICS!

ALL GOTH PROM PICS HERE

Prom happenings and pics

2008-05-21T03:18:35Z

It's funny saying "prom" because it makes me feel like I'm in Highschool again though I graduated Highschool 7 years ago haha. man that means 3 more years until my reunion....doubt I'll go.

Anyway, so Goth prom is Thursday and I'm excited. I completed my petticoat tonight and put it on under my skirt, looks great. The top looks good with the skirt because it's the same material. I made a top hat as well. my shitty digi cam takes horrible pics but i tried hard to get one so you guys can see....i think it's lovely and the roses match the corsage.

Sucks because you can't see the fine details and trim :(

These were taken after Charlie's going away party at SCORES in Baltimore. It's a high end "gentleman's club" It was fancy there and we had a lot of fun and we went to College Park to drop off Chris and Matt and ended up staying there and hanging out till we passed out at 6am haha. This is what i looked like that morning when I woke up, Tabby said i might as well have the 1's on me. You should have seen the look this little boy gave us when we were walking to our car in that residential neighborhood that morning lol we started cracking up cuz im sure he thought we were strippers or something.

I look like shit in case you all couldn't tell. Yes i got my hair cut too.

Bunched up Updates

2008-05-19T15:04:02Z

Haven't been around to post lately. Gots good reasons yo.

Went to Cali, had lots of fun. Always sunny, lots of beach time but the people there are not my thing. Cali is like a different country and Im so used to the East Coast so I wasn't used to the Cali mentality. Not syaing it's bad but it's not for me.

Me and Brendon have been doing FANTASTIC. He just makes me so happy. Everything he does and everything he is is just perfect.

This Thursday is Goth Prom and Brendon is going as my date. He is excited about going, I can't wait simply because my skirt and top are very old school gothic victorian looking. I need to go buy a small top hat and decorate it, along with a petticoat cuz i think i need one. Kyle and colleen along with Tabby and Cowboy are going too so it should be a blast.

Carole is coming up for her bday this weekend starting friday. Matt is having a party at his place (he lives with arthur) and he invited Pat, Brendon, and our crew so it should be fun. gonnna take carole to that then sat if its nice gonna go to the zoo then the comedy club.

I have an exciting life right now :)

see ya later guys.

?

2008-05-09T17:23:12Z

Is it bad or wrong to feel a little down because you really want to see someone though you hogged up their time for days on end recently? Is it bad to want more time? UGH i know what it is...its because i havent been this happy in years and i finally meet someone worth my time and worth talking to. Someone who i didnt meet at a bar or club. Someone who is gentle, sweet, kind, considerate, interesting. when you have good feelings and are around someone who makes you feel happy and good about yourself it's natural to want more right?

I just need to tell myself that he likes me and that he will have time and he wont have time and I have to accept that tho i dont want to lol. Its just that i spend a lot of time at home by myself and most of my friends are far away or have kids and its hard to find someone to talk to these days and chill with. I like having a friend. i like being able to kiss that friend too. And hold his hand :)

Boo shitty Thursday

2008-05-08T22:49:35Z

The only thing I have to look forward to today is LOST. It's shitty out so it destroys my desire to go anywhere. Im still in my pjs and i am eating spinach and mushroom pizza.....BOO!

Tomorrow is supposed to be shitty out too....damnit it all to hell.

You treat me like a queen

2008-05-07T19:49:26Z

Brendon woke up at 6:45am this morning to go walk 15 min down the road to my car and move it closer to the apartment so that I didn't have to wake up and do it. He didn't want to wake me either. He is so fucking nice.

When I woke up, there was hot coffee by the table for me, made just how I always make it. He treats me so nice and he pays such close attention to everything I do or say. I am so smitten ^^

Reagan ;P

2008-05-07T16:50:15Z

So Brendon's Bday was on Monday (cinco de Mayo) along with creepy's bday. I went to work, went to Over the border or w/e it's called across the way for a quick Mexican celebration with Charlie, Octavia, Tabby and Atilya then rushed over to the Rhodeside Grill in Clarendon for Creepy's bday. His friends and gf are AWESOME. Then I was going to go home assuming Brendon had plans for his bday and I didn't want to bother him. Well he calls me up and says he is tired and will celebrate it on Thurs at this place by his house and asks me to spend the evening with him so i do.

The next day we spend the ENTIRE day outside. Ate lunch outside, went to a park and layed in the grass for a couple of hours, walked around then went to see Ironman. Ironman is fucking AWESOME. it's so sexy and I may be biased because i have always been a HUGE fan of the comics when I was younger but it's pretty fucking good. Robert Downey Jr did an AWESOME job at playing Tony Stark.

Brendon didn't want me to go home so we went for a drink after the movie and back to his place and I stayed there again and went right to work from his place. 1 full day and 2 nights with him. It was amazing, he is such a perfect gentleman. So sweet too. right before bed we watched soem Cowboy beebop which surprised me...didn't know he liked things like that :)

*Beams*